I was reading a discussion the other day that didn't please me, but I stuck to it, as some of the insights being shared there could be useful for improving my skills when writing a pattern.
Somewhere along the many pages of the thread there was this one post that literally drained all my energy. There it was, full of ugliness, the one aspect of human nature I abhor the most: envy. There was also a lot of sense of entitlement, but I'm getting used to that.
That one post accused people with more skills than themselves (the poster) to be selfish and to purposely keep knitters with less experience in the dark by not sharing what they know.
In my perfect world there would be a way for people to just tap into my brain and use the knowledge that is there. Thing is, it can't be done. I want to share the (little) knowledge I gathered throughout the years, but lack the skills and the vocabulary.
Knitting, for me, is mostly a visual thing. Sometimes I know how to do whatever it is that is a doubt to some, but lack the words to explain it. It's very frustrating.
When I read that post, I felt sad and drained - as in tired, not willing to do anything. My ideas are still in my head, but right now I don't feel like picking up needles and yarn to work on them. I'll get over it, though, and once more shy away from those types of discussions for a while. Like I said at the beginning of this post, those kinds of threads can be useful, but there is so much I can take before speak my mind.
On the topic of speaking my mind, I don't worry about people not perceiving me as "nice" and thus not buying my patterns. I burnt that bridge a long time ago ;).